Where I'm at.

Work is fantastic. I got the chance at a great opportunity to further my career. I'm definitely going to take it!

I must say, I don't like all of Charlene's friends. It's a very one sided relationship in their favor. I understand that she is giving and willing to work things out...but I don't see how she can even consider such hollow human beings, best friends....? Oh well, I guess it's not for me to understand. It's her life. Funny thing is...it's the same thing over and over again. They go out, drink, gossip about one another, talk about work and say it was a good time?? Just seems monotonous me. Guess I'm just venting.

I will never understand how some people can't just live their own lives. Funny how people love to be in someone elses shadow. Masked by another persons reality. Waiting for their own to make sense. I think it's a sign of weakness and lack of mental depth. Why do we find ourselves so caught up in other peoples shit? Live ur own life....maybe u might be a happy person for a day then. I laugh at the people who don't live for themselves and at the mercy of others. Friendships and relationships are not about convenience. It's a shared responsibility.

I'm tired of seeing transparent, bleached out people. Empty minded but full of shit. The kind of shit u never want to step in. Habitually lying and masking the truth at every instant. How does it feel to be that dull? To be that blind with ur eyes open? Who knows.... Time always prevails in this situation. I've been over these types of people since my father decided to lay his hands on my mother. Zero tolerance.

If people don't shape up, things will get real, FAST. It's more than a threat. It's the truth. I wonder how it feels to live ur life knowing that when ur gone, u will be forgotten because of how u chose to live today...? Ehhh, it's not worth my time anyway. Just wanted to pose that question.

Fuck everyone except a few.

Peace.

-Soul

O'Hare Airport.

It wreaks like McDonalds. There are to 300 lb. men sitting on either side of me sweating uncontrollably while on their laptops. I am at one of those " Verizon Wireless Charge Stations ". They are probably watching me blog about them as I type this.....But I don't give a shit. Obesity is odd. That's all I really wanna say about the whole being " FAT " thing. Weird.

I would really love to be at the Shakedown (9) this Saturday. The lineup looks so ill. Vegas is gonna represent though! I just needed a vacation from work and I really missed my family. Sorry Vee, I know I backed out on short notice...I had to.

Waiting to get on a plane to go to Minnesota, twin cities. Listening to the new house mix I made a week and a half ago. I can't wait to see Romeny, Ozzy, John and the whole Warriors family. MT Kingz!!!

Tonight is dinner with Romeny. Then Azia lounge with the crew and Romeny. It's going to be a great night!!! =)

PEACE.

-soul

The windiest day of my life....

....was 2 days ago. JESUS LORD. Why is it on the day that Chicago lets Vegas borrow ALL of it's wind, any women in sight is wearing a dress? Don't get me wrong, I am not exactly complaining about it. I just feel the need to express my thoughts.

It's hilarious how when a gust of wind blows past a skinny, skeletal woman, she holds her skirt down with a life changing grip (L.C.G.), HAHA! YET, a husky-well fed BBW lets her skirt fly as if gravity was reversed ONLY around her. It's one thing to be proud of what you have but, I think De La said it best, '' POT HOLES IN MY LAWN ". I am not trying to see the 25+ years of terrible eating habits and non-exercising side affects on your two hunks of flesh harbored under that GARAGE of a garment.

I do respect a woman who takes the extra effort to hold her skirt down in the wind....but DAMNIT, if you are that skinny girl with a chunky monkey friend who lets her skirt fly freely, then maybe you need to reevaluate your friendship. HA!

Other than that, life is swell. I'm learning more and more about the Roman empire. I'm not talking about Italy either ya'll. =) He is a dope 2 year old with crazy potential.

Good evening people.

Up.

it's 5:13am and i still haven't slept. phone is cut off and the bill is paid. man, fuck Sprint.

anyway, tonight was a great night. finished breaks for your sole vol.4! finally...it feels like
it took forever. i am thinking of calling is quits on the BFYS volumes after this one. time to
start something new. I wanna concentrate on the Soulshine blog and Soulshine Vol.2 a lot
more now.

in stead of breaks mixes, i'll post like a " song of the week " or monthly mix with a bunch
of random joints on thrown together. Either way, I wanna take a step back from making
BBOY mixes only. I have a whole damn library of music to play. it's about time that I do so.


-Soul

1nce Again.

" people at my funeral, frontin' like they miss me " - Biggie

I have a feeling that it will be that way. No pity please.
This blog is for me to vent a bit. I keep it public because
it doesn't need to be private unless I am " doing something
wrong ", right? haha...

You try and try to be complete. It takes a lot of practice and
focus. I want to be better at life. It will take time - maybe
another ten years? Eh, if so, I'm okay with that.

I guess being salty is a permanent state with me. Kinda feels
good though. Living without hope. You never get let down!
It's great! I have dreams and what not, but those are for me.
And I sure as hell don't live by them. I take what I love and
make it a reality, daily. No matter if it takes up my time and
I have to take time away from others, then so be it.

It does not mean that I love anyone less or think about any
one less than I usually do. People tend to think otherwise.
Oh well. I don't lose sleep over that shit.

Not expecting any readers. Kinda nice to let it out though.

Peace.